Coming out and Breaking Down

Sadly, this isn’t about breaking it down into some great dance moves…. I came out almost two months ago now? It was great it helped me so much, it was the first time in a long time I’d been truly honest with myself but it did also push me towards a breakdown. This wasn’t direct …

Welcome to the Shit show

This is by far that hardest post I’ve written, it’s kind of more of an open letter to everyone, basically so I don’t have to repeat these things, you can just be aware of my current situation and not need constant updates on it because I’m beyond not capable of repeating this over and over. …

Nobody move…. I’ve dropped my brain

Some days I do wonder if my brain has just fallen out my head, it’s shrivelled up to the size of a raisin dropped out of my ear and one of the dogs has eaten it….. dramatic right. Thoughts just completely fail to form in my head sometimes, memories they’re just a no go, I …

Can’t fix everything

I have this constant compulsion when someone is having a problem to try and fix it. It doesn’t matter what the problem is I’ll be there lil bob the frickin builder ready to fix it. At first it may just seem like a nice thing to do but it’s become a problem where I’m not …

Haven’t heard from/spoken to you in a while.

Am I the only person that feels an immense pressure to keep in touch with every person I know….? and its not a pressure they have put on me it’s a pressure I’ve put on me. I think in my mind it is the worry people will not like me because they have not heard …

Being the bad guy

You have to be the bad guy in someone’s story…. I cannot remember where I heard this, must have been Sex and the city. Anyway, it is probably one of the most accurate statements I have ever heard, along with cake makes everything better, that is pretty much the only statement I live by. So …

Make everyone else happy……

Trying to please everyone else…. the guaranteed route to failure, trust me….. it’s all I’ve ever done. I’d bury my feeling down constantly about peoples actions, avoid confronting people and trying to address my issues because I never wanted to upset them… in the end everyone involved gets upset. I could bury everything away and …

It’s not for you to say I am ok…

I am so hungover….  who said cocktails were a good idea, they were right but not the amount I drank…? Anyway I am not ok; we will start there. This is not a mass explanation of my past of why I am not ok it is a way of trying to show people how to …

Bi-Bitch

This. Is. Terrifying. How do people do this?! It's so scary, not knowing how people will react to this is so frightening. So i'm Bisexual.... SHOCKING, a lot of people picked up on the potential signs i could be, although, honestly I've never really accepted this for myself, I've spent a long time fighting this …

F*ck the Police

I can feel my dad getting concerned about what this says from here… and he is 300 miles away… HAPPY FATHERS DAY So, f*ck the police. That expression has been around longer than I have, it is certainly not new it has just gained more attention in recent weeks.  Originating from a protest song from …