Merry Christmas….. Kind Of

So Christmas news, 5 days, no restrictions go see three other households sit together eat together be merry…. What could possibly go wrong… Ok I have mixed views on the Christmas plan, good and bad and like most of this pandemic, I feel morally we have been left with no idea which way to go. …

A Small Update

Well, I had an assessment/therapy session about a month ago now, maybe longer, it has just taken me a while to write about it because I’ve been a busy bee. It was a great session the GP was fab he even made me laugh whilst I had to speak about some pretty horrible things and …

Therapy

I still haven’t been able to lay on a sofa with a sophisticated looking therapist sat in an oversized armchair taking notes whilst they ask me how I feel about multiple childhood memories and quite frankly I am DISSAPOINTED (I’m kidding I promise GP if you read this for some bizzare reason please don’t abandon …

A little evil mouse in my brain

I’m pretty sure there’s an evil little mouse sat on my brain prodding it with sticks…… I thought this one suited October 1st, although it doesn’t involve spooky scary skeletons. I, now more than ever, am very easily scared by most things, simple tasks like driving or walking somewhere, people, literally any person it doesn’t …

The F Word

Fat....This topic has honestly only become important to me personally within the last year. So I’ll start by being blunt and honest I was one of those people that shames others for their weight, never to their face because I was just being a sly bully really ( I was a bit of a c*nt …

STD Stigma

Ohhhh this could come back to bite me, then again so could a lot of stuff so here it goes. Now I’m writing this for 2 reasons. To hopefully offer some comfort to anyone who has experienced something similarBecause I’m very aware that people use the fact I had an std as a way to …

Coming out and Breaking Down

Sadly, this isn’t about breaking it down into some great dance moves…. I came out almost two months ago now? It was great it helped me so much, it was the first time in a long time I’d been truly honest with myself but it did also push me towards a breakdown. This wasn’t direct …

Welcome to the Shit show

This is by far that hardest post I’ve written, it’s kind of more of an open letter to everyone, basically so I don’t have to repeat these things, you can just be aware of my current situation and not need constant updates on it because I’m beyond not capable of repeating this over and over. …

Nobody move…. I’ve dropped my brain

Some days I do wonder if my brain has just fallen out my head, it’s shrivelled up to the size of a raisin dropped out of my ear and one of the dogs has eaten it….. dramatic right. Thoughts just completely fail to form in my head sometimes, memories they’re just a no go, I …

Can’t fix everything

I have this constant compulsion when someone is having a problem to try and fix it. It doesn’t matter what the problem is I’ll be there lil bob the frickin builder ready to fix it. At first it may just seem like a nice thing to do but it’s become a problem where I’m not …